June 15, 2005


shadowminx
Urgph....

Posted at 05:56 AM

I feel so completely down. I screwed up my english competition today, have a cold, can't breathe properly, tecra's down so i can't write anything, have no inspiration to draw, and mum's just come back so i have to get of the net pretty much now.



April 7, 2005


shadowminx
I'm still alive!

Posted at 07:29 AM

wow....i can't believe i've so easily ditched my blog. oh welL^^

anwyays....so, today...was a crap day. Seriously...i left abhorsen at home so i couldn't read anything! Thoughout lunch i was so bored...andi had to put up with christine's singing. Don't get me wrong...she's good, but she flaunts it too much *growl*.

oh man...seriously, Elyse is scary. Very scary. Not only is she an obsessive cutter (well, probably not...but what i saw of her arm today certainly tells me she's no light one), but she can make herself force up vomit on queue. >_<... but hey, she's cool so meH^^

oh hell...i don't wanna go school 2morrow. i'm very tempted to make an escape to girra and give them a suprise visit but...naah...oh man, i REALLY don't wanna go. *sigh* one...more...day...*breathes*...e_E

and now a few song lyrics i'd like to write.

everything you say to me takes me one step closer to the edge
and i'm about to break
i need a little room to break
coz i'm one stop closer to the edge and I'M ABOUT TO BREAK!

SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUP!!!

AND I'M ABOUT TO BREAK!!!!

*sigh*..for christine + a few others, that was



March 24, 2005


shadowminx
no flaws when you're pretending...

Posted at 07:23 AM

*is listening to everybody's fool*

chrstine has now embarked on becomming something beyond the explanation of annoying. I swear. If she plays matchmaker one more fucking time...i will hurt her. i swear. HURT. Not a petty little slap, but i will actually fucking hurt her. I can't take her anymore....frick man....i can't...and she's not the only one i don't think i can take anymore.

blargh...so glad for this 4 day weekend...i fucking need it. *sigh*...easter show tomorrow with my dear friends hopefully^^

March 21, 2005


shadowminx
aaa...

Posted at 07:35 AM

man i hate being stuck in such a sticky plight....and damn chrstine. damn damn damn her to the very bowels of guady happy land. let the loopies feed on her flesh forever. may neriya find sadistic amusement in watching her getting stung and...er...'re-formed' by boo-bies. may the sugar-mantis eternally claw-...uh, you get the point.

well? shall i say stuff? man...i feel like such a vain little shytehead exerting this like there's nothing to it...but i'm really exhausted of all my caring right now, so meH.

well, this morning she was walking beside me and she suddenly said in her i'm-about-to-talk-about-someting-burdening-or-i'm-about-to-bitch voice

"you know, someone told me a confession," and then she paused.

"...and it's about you. I don't know whether i should say it or not..."

at that point i froze because, naturally, my first thought was "sh!T!! She knows i think that she's an annoying little cloded-minded shithead! argh!! and she's about to accost me on it!"...and i was thinking of what to say to her while simutaneously fighting to figure out how she knew, because the only people who know are pretty much Krys and Kiita, and the people who read this blog (whcih i might add, has not been given to anyone from FS)...when she gave this bantering kind of aura and said something like "he told me not to tell you" or something of the like, and instantly, i wqas subjected to a spontaneous bout of relief and utter vexation (is that even a word? :S)

so, after my tremenous relieve that chrstine wasn't about to give me the full-guilt trip, i had another frggin problem to face. Yeah. Christine started giggling and acting like some giddy fangirl, repeatedly exhorting the irksome fact that someone has a crush on me. And i'm sure i know who it is, which makes it worse. Not to sound like a vain cow, of course, but it's not hard to tell...guys usually don't go out of their way to talk to me. trust me, they never.

which of course, presents me with a oh-so-fucking annoying problem, because not only do i have christine tailing me like some kind of delerious schoolgirl spreading her news to everyone (which, i might add, i'm seriously considering to strangle her for) but i also jave to face the annoyance of having someone else tail me. GRR....damnit! Why the hell can't i vent this without sounding like some egotistic little bytch?! GAH...the thing is, now it's going to be odd every friggin time i talk to that dude. And i swear it's all christine's fault. I'm rather glad i can trust her with a secret...*rolls eyes*

This better blow over soon, because i hate getting unwanted attention over anything. Seriously. I just want this to be OVER. It is SO EFFING AnNOYING. ANOOYING. FRIGGIN ANOYING!

damnit. parents home. i go now.

March 18, 2005


shadowminx
Rantings

Posted at 07:27 AM

here we go. ranting again. wellll you seeeeeeee....we have this english extension assigement where we have to appropriate a fairy tale, which means make it into a modern story...on our case, we're doing 'the ugly ducking'. It was bad enough i had to work with Chrtine and Rosie, my 'friends'. First and foremost, i'd like to state how we spent TWO WHOLE FUCKING LESSONS deciding what fairy tale we were going to do....which got us off to a bad start right off the bat. And now, and in all sincerity, the storyline we have right now is SHIT actually, beyond shit. the thing is...they SUCK at creativity...they're all big conformists and don't like the idea of abstract concepts because....well, they're THEM. so whenever i try to make the story seem more INTERSTING by adding ORIGINAL stuff, they give me a weird look and go "nooooo...." so they we're now stuck with the corniest, most unoriginal idea for a story i have ever seen. so bad i am sternly ashamed to be part of their group.....SO.BLOODY.ABOMINABLY.BAD. see first hand for yourself.... our storyline: a boy goes to a new school and he wants to be cool so he tries to get into the popular group. he goes to a party and he pisses off the "cool group"'s leader and gets thrown out of the party or something shit like that. he gets all disheatened, and then he decided to just be himself so he finds some friends who like him as just being himself and he gets the girl he wants and lives happily ever after. now tell me....is that a pitifully SHIT story or what?!@ Quote Kieran: "....... Shoot the other members of your group. Because if you honestly run with that I will shoot you" my reply: "oh please do...please PLEASE DO" it is seriously the shittiest, most cliche and corniest thing have ever had to go with in my LIFE, and when i pointed that out, Rosie said "well why don't you give some ideas that would make it more creative?!" WELL YOU LITTLE CLOSED-MINDED SHIT, I HAVE BEEN TRYING TO, BUT SINCE YOU TWO ARE SUCH LITTLE UPTIGHT CRETIN SHITHEAD FUCKED UP GIRLY LITTLE UNDERLINGS, YOU JUST REJECT THEM ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!! Seriously....i had the idea that the guy could be a nerd and be paid out but in the future become a sucessful business person and kick all the other druggers asses when he's a millionaire and they're on the dole, but DO YOU KNOW WHAT CHRISTINE SAID!? she said we could do it because "i don't want to have a reunion thing....because, you know....we've never experienced it before so we don't know what it's like" or some shit like that. WHAT THE HELL DO YOU MEAN?! DUDE, THERE'S A PHENOMENOMAL THING CALLED THE IMAGINATION, EVER FUCKING HEARD OF IT?! oh wait....this is christine we're talking about here....christine the closed minded, everyone-is-like-so-weird-except-for-me little cow. and, you know when the new dude gets thrown out or whatever at the party? well, our original idea that something happens to him at the party, and i suggested that it could be that the dudes tie him up and chuck pies at him or something, and for a moment that was the idea, but then they discarded it because christine said "like....who does that anyway!?" THE IDEA IS TO BE CREATIVE!!! IF YOU DON'T OPEN YOUR MIND AND ADD IN CREATIVE, ORIGINAL ASPECTS OF THE STORY THEN YOU'RE GOING TO END UP WITH THE BORING SHIT THAT WE HAVE NOW!!! SERIOUSLY! IF YOU CONFORM TO LIFE IT'S GOING TO BE SHIT BECAUSE LIFE IS BORING UNLESS YOU MAKE IT OTHERWISE!! SO annoying!! *breaks down in an irate psychofit*

March 17, 2005


shadowminx
liberation!

Posted at 07:47 AM

yay! enlish test over and done with!

great....now i gotta learn how to not suck at writing now....feH...i hate english. it detracts from my writing, rather ironically. man...it's porbably gonna take me ages to get better again.

anyway....i just realised that i've been needing to go to the toilet every since i was on the train. it's now 6:47PM.....oops. :D

March 16, 2005


shadowminx
Fear

Posted at 06:56 AM

deaaarr....the past two days have seriously seen me teetering towards the brinks of insanity. Which is why i'm on the net now....because i can't stand it. looking at my english notes for tomorrow cursed assesment just makes me sick.. and it doesn't help that i'm already sick.

yea, well....if i recount the past two days, it'll take me too long...gah what the hell!? well, basically today, this dude got bashed pretty bad at the station...it was really nerve-shaking, becauswe i was there, on the same platform....and [insert station name here] isn't a big station...it's small, with only two platforms...i didn't see it, but i was there, and i felt the shakenup air of fear. ...and it didn't help that i was already feeling shaken from the lack of food from not eating my lunch and having a stomach ache...and it was cold too ><...anyway, what happened was that these 'homies' came down onto the platform and just started bashing this dude up and kicking him in the face...aparently there was lots of blood and stuff...and yeah >< . i was freaky, cause i was innocently sitting there eating my lunch, when all of a sudden the station master dude started screaming over the PA system something like:

"YOU BOYS STOP THAT NOW! I'M CALLING THE POLICE!" or something like that....and then everyone started crowding around the area near the steps...and i could see all these wide-eyed and mouthed expressions....Emily was one of them, and she saw it >< i feel sorry for her....i mean, i was rather shaken by it and i didn't even see the thing!

anyway....aside that, today was a crappy day. seriously....i have an assesment tomororw on modernist poetry (which, i might add, i am SICK of studying for!) so anyway....miss marked my work on the rhapsody poem, and she was telling me how i needed help in my english because i sucked! She said, in nicer, more discreet words, that I SUCK AT ENGLISH, AND I NEED HELP! Seriously! OK...NOT to sound like a complete egotistic, coneited cow or anything, but I DO NOT SUCK AT ENLGISH AND I MOST CERTAINLY DO NOT NEED SPECIAL HELP! ok, i know to the core i am not the best person in the whole world, or grade if you want to humble it down, but i do not need HELP! I don't suck THAT much!! grr...you know what i really want to do? I want to get a really, really, really good mark in tomorrow's assesment, like say....20/20, and then shove it in her face! (well...not literally, i think the mark will do that by itself...but it's nice to think ^-^)

yes....so, yesterday. GRR!!!!

[WARNING. BITCHING AHEAD. all who oppose, then...meH]

seriously, yesterday Christine was annoying the crap outta me......i don't really feel like ranting on about it now....but yeah, i guess i'll just leave it at that. Man...i can't wait until the english exam's over....actualyl i can, because that means i'll have less time to study for it. I really want to do good...but it's one of those things that you can't really control...well at least, that's how i feel now....

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